I want to thank Adrian and Trevor.
Your comments made me think about what I did.
Honestly, I shouldn't do that to you guys...
Well here is what lead me to my actions...
My mother wants me to start Anti-depressants again,
I screamed at her that I didn't need them ruining my life.
And she told me that I had already ruined my life.
I ruined it because I'm a "lazy, fucking gay, fat ass."
So I was in a horrid mood because of this.
My dad wasn't home so he couldn't do anything.
I was online drawing and she came up behind me,
she started bitching at me to quit Deviant Art.
That I failed school because of it,
and also that I wasn't paying enough attention to my sister because of DA.
Another thing was she blamed me for not noticing my dad was sick!
Sure I noticed he was coughing a lot,
but the man smokes!
It made me so angry and I screamed at her to fuck off,
she threatened to tell everyone that I was gay,
which is (was) only true in someways.
I'm honestly confused about my sexuality now...
But I shut my mouth and turned away.
She kept going on saying that my obsession with Heroin,
and Guns will cause me to be a murder..
I broke my tablet mouse cause I was that mad.
She began to say that me not being obedient
caused her to start Cocaine...
I shut my eyes and just sat there.
She yet again threatened to send me away.
Then dad called and asked her to pick him up.
So that was good.
I just sat there in a bad mood,
which caused me to re-think my decision of leaving DA.
I have wanted to take a break for a while...
When my friend came on, they were having a bad night too..
I talked to them, and decided
"Hey they are a close friend, they should no I'm leaving."
BAD IDEA.
I pissed them off, which caused me to be pissed off..
and I told them to fuck off...
Bitch move huh?
Today, I sat on the pool deck and thought about everything after reading the comments...
I just dumped all my friends on DA because of my personal problems..
I shouldn't do that to people...
SO here I am,
saying sorry for what I did..

Will you guys forgive me?

Please guys, don't blame my mom..
she isn't all there in the head...